It's time to rock (okay?)

School is tomorrow...

While fresh acne is scabbing over and I'm in the middle of "my moon" (Hey, some of you can relate to me, I bet--that's why I tell you that stuff. HA HA) I'm so ready to go back I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight. I'm tired of the summer heat. I want the orange leaves and frost. I want to see my crazy-ass friends and learn shit.

I have plans this year. But the thing is, I know that they will, as always, be confronted by what I call the "Not everything goes as expected Law." I've been becoming more familiar with this law over the last few years. I keep forgetting about it and then it smacks me in the face when I make some significant plans and they don't go the way I want them to. This law doesn't apply as much when I expect something negative to happen and instead i get something positive. It's just usually me trying to control my life, and somehow it gets thrown askew.
Is that just me, or do you guys get that sometimes, too? Because I know people who are..um...perfect in every meaning of the word, and I swear to Goddess, whatever they plan works out (do a degree, to be realistic).
Once I planned a camping trip. I invited twenty people, six showed up. Instead of staying two nights, we stayed one. When we got home, the four remaining guys were suddenly invited back at my house, and they all spent the night, and shit.
I'm not saying everything went wrong. I just wonder, if I plan to change my attitude during the school year, or if I plan to get a job while I don't own a car (or even drive. Permit procrastinators, unite!), could it work out if I really try, or will it still fall apart?
If I try to slowly distance myself from a long-time friend who's been neglecting me, will they notice and will things change?

I'm ready for the future, for change. I practically crave it. It's just so...difficult to tame. But that doesn't deter me. I think about all the things I want to do in the next few years and that's when I'm reminded that life is so damn good. I am gifted, I am loved, and I'm alive. That should be my new mantra...my current one is "Whut the fuck." Haha. But seriously, those of you having it rough, you have to remember that you are in control. It's all up to you. Sure, not everything goes as expected, but that should be the least of our worries. : )